The type of thief you can't arrest

Studying sucks the life out of me. Can’t wait till...

Thu, 09 May 2013 04:24:42 -0400

Studying sucks the life out of me.

Can’t wait till summer.

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Sat, 04 May 2013 13:41:47 -0400

My favorite Batman movie. I know, typical. But when something is...

Mon, 11 Mar 2013 20:53:52 -0400

My favorite Batman movie. I know, typical. But when something is good, it’s good.

I must be willing to give up what I am in order to become what I will be” - Einstein

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 19:51:10 -0400

I must be willing to give up what I am in order to become what I will be” - Einstein

starry night

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 01:53:26 -0500

Sometimes I feel this emotion. Emotion not as a reaction but as a mental state. It makes my head hurt ever so slightly. Part of my brain feels like it wants to be in a “bad” mood but the other part is too tired. My brain is taking something in. Like watching television on mute. There’s lots going on but I can’t hear it.

_Vincent Van Gogh’s Starry Night.

(one of my favorites)

Snowboarding in Mammoth 2/16/13

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 14:45:00 -0500

Snowboarding in Mammoth 2/16/13

Work flow

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 20:27:24 -0500

I have more responsibilities at work now. I still dont know all there is to know to make it go smoothly and there is not really anyone there to teach me. I’m thinking, “muscle through it”. My partner is knocked up and her schedule is now only calling for part time. So even when her side of the job comes in and she doesnt finish, it is my job to finish because i’m kind of her supervisor. Turns out there are things pending that should be done. And my work load doesn’t let me move. Today i have no time for coffee or breakfast let alone lunch. I leave work to go to school and i burst out in tears in my car because my boss let me have it. The girl that used to do my job has different responsibilities…not more. My boss asks if she has been helping me…I said, “no, this isnt her job anymore”. I didnt tell him that she is hell bent on not doing anything that isnt her job because she feels like it would mean that she would get stuck doing ALL of the work eventually. She wont do it unless they give her more money. They just gave us raises..she wasnt happy with hers…shit, I wasnt happy with mine.

But I should be grateful though. I dont know what is wrong with me. This time last year I was not making any fun money. I’m just getting caught up.

Sorry i just needed to vent. Math was canceled. Means I went home to rest for 2 hours. Still got homework, class, research, etc.

less glamourous: I eat in the car mostly. On my way to work. On...

Fri, 08 Feb 2013 03:32:43 -0500

less glamourous: I eat in the car mostly. On my way to work. On my way to school. Commuter shit.

My day in a nutshell.

Fri, 08 Feb 2013 03:29:56 -0500

My day in a nutshell.

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Fri, 01 Feb 2013 20:38:04 -0500

Good late dinner.

Sun, 27 Jan 2013 00:47:20 -0500

Good late dinner.

Jay-Z still looks so hungry in this picture.

Wed, 09 Jan 2013 01:27:16 -0500

Jay-Z still looks so hungry in this picture.

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Fri, 04 Jan 2013 16:47:24 -0500

New years eve + tequila= horrible.

I’m horrible.

End of the year ramblings...

Mon, 31 Dec 2012 14:53:43 -0500

New Years Resolution Time!

okay, so I’m pretty good at these haha I kept all my New Years resolutions for this last year. Finished the year with a GPA above 3.0, got another car (my old one died was donzo December of last year), got a big girl job, and even my then farfetched goal of moving out was accomplished. The main obstacles of this last year were lack of time, anxiety, and emotional road bumps.

My anxiety was worse than last year. My body responded to the stress and I freaked the fuck out. I paid attention to every vein, every ache, blood shot eye, EVERYTHING. Pretty much I thought I was dying when i was just tired. All this and I was still drinking! I didnt have time to work out or eat well so I thought, ” shit why Im i so tired?” and “why are my arms so weak?”. It was just that I wasn’t working out and my muscles subsided. I wasnt in shape and I thought I was falling apart when in reality I was just not pushing my body to maintain.

I got good grades but it was all because I didnt have to work shitty retail hours anymore. Had work all day and then school till 930 at night. Home by 1015.

With my schedule being somewhat demanding for a lazy broad like me, I had the emotional span of a tomato plant. So I wasn’t really trying to be understanding in many of the situations or trying to be “above” it. I was down there in the dirt, with a bad attitude, and easy outs.

So my New Years resolutions;

1. Eat more. I’ll be able to handle stress if I’m balanced, diet wise. So eat more often/better.

2. SAVE FOR BRAZIL 2014

3. Sleep more. I already set up my work/school schedule to make this possible next year.

4. Work out more. I see a correlation between my lack of running and my high stress level. I kind of need to run in order to not lose my marbles!

5. Take care of those who took good care of me this last year. I had so much help achieving my goals. My best friend for getting me the interview, always listening to my fucken theories, and every time I was acting like a pussy, she would straight out tell me so. My boyfriend for dealing with my loose screws. I’m a fucken hand full. I’m mostly all fun and games but when i’m not…good God. He has been delicate with my moods since we met and I have to change so that I wont take advantage of his good nature. It’s stressing being this short fused, anyway. My brother and sister always have my back. Always make me feel like i’m apart of something special. They keep me grounded and I really appreciate that. I just want to be the person that they know I can be and a good example for the younger two.

6. Straight A’s Spring Semester.

7. Pay off my car.

Busy year, huh? haha

pale as heck. winter always makes me really pale and summer...

Sat, 29 Dec 2012 16:55:00 -0500

pale as heck.

winter always makes me really pale and summer always makes me really dark.

His and hers. During Christmas

Sat, 29 Dec 2012 16:53:42 -0500

His and hers.

During Christmas

Mike’s Birthgiving.

Sat, 29 Dec 2012 16:52:48 -0500

Mike’s Birthgiving.

my little brothers during Thanksgiving! i love these little guys...

Sat, 29 Dec 2012 16:51:27 -0500

my little brothers during Thanksgiving! i love these little guys <3

t-shirts and slacks to work…cause im not growing up...

Sat, 29 Dec 2012 16:48:00 -0500

t-shirts and slacks to work…cause im not growing up without a fight.

pretty much how my after class study sessions looked like. And...

Sat, 29 Dec 2012 16:46:24 -0500

pretty much how my after class study sessions looked like. And how my day attempts to study at work looked like this semester.